Pink Flamingo on Toast

Not that I have a tough week...but because I'll be busy. The past two days I've been at home and I have to say..I didn't like it. I should have studied..but oh well. Tomorrow I'll be going to a thing with some friends. I'm really looking forward to it. Will be a great chance to meet new people. Then sunday of course is football. :) Not much else to say. Just not in a chatty mood I guess.

"True friends stab you in the front." - Oscar Wilde

Thank goodness for left over darvocets from an operation last fall. Now I can finally get some sleep. Even if it is drug induced.

Didn't get my MMCF from Starbucks.... Tomorrow for sure!

One class down...one to go. Now I understand why we were having a party today in class. We spent most of the time silent and only signing. J and I had a blast. I think we laughed the entire time. Might be that we were gossiping before class about the other girls. I have to say that I'm not a girly girl if you haven't already figured that out. Sure..I like getting my nails done and my hair styled...but I don't wear 2 inch heals to school. Let's forget the fact that I'm sure I'd break my neck if I did. J is the same way. Unfortunately a lot of the other girls in class are girly girls. Granted they are 16 but still...oof...too much cutie cute for this cynical girl. So the only thing I've had to eat today is cheese and crackers and one munchkin from Dunkin Donuts. My tummy is mad!! I probably don't have time to run to Starbucks..but I think I might give it a try.

Yay!! It's midweek! I am SOOO busy today though. Well..not really. I have class but we are having a party in there so I have to stop by the grocery store before I head in. I don't get why we have to have a party in class. I'd rather just learn to be totally honest. My second class we're having a big review for an Exam on Monday. I expect my hand to be cramped from taking notes tonight. Fifteen days until I go to Michigan. I'm so excited. Now more then ever do I need this. It's going to be so wonderful to see Lisa. She the one person who knows all of my secrets and still loves me for them. We've had our little spats but we always come back to each other. I'm lucky to have her as a friend. I wish I had more friends like her.

Happy 7th Birthday Google!!

1:48am and I can't sleep..again! Man..my hands are really dry. I need to find some lotion bad. At this hour..I'm allowed to ramble. I just wish my "Buddy lists" weren't full of people who are AFK. Then I could at least ramble to someone....

I should be exausted but I'm not. I only got about 5 hours of sleep. Going to bed at 6:15am isn't good for me. I need to learn to turn off my mind for sleeping. Usually movies distract me, but last night didn't help. I lost a pound this week :) Another good week for WW. I have been consistantly losing since I went on their core plan. Sure..I eat off plan..but I count the points. I like accountability!! Classes went okay today too. Learning a ton of new signs. I think I'm doing really well. My other class I might not be doing so well. We started a review for a test next Monday. Lots of stuff...I'll be studying a lot this week - weekend. Oh..but I will be going to a Deaf Club meeting on Saturday night with some girls from my class. Should be fun. Should be ...interesting too :)

It's 4:14am and I'm awake. I've watched two movies, layed there in the dark and finally decided to let the computer lull me to sleep. Everytime I lay down my mind begins to race. A friend who happened to be online asked where it was going? I responded, mostly in circles. I went for a playful hug today and got a stern "NO!" and a slight pull away. Have to say..it hurt. Kind of the second rejection I've recieved in the past week. Maybe I'm being silly and seeing things that aren't there. Time will tell I guess....

Well...not a very exciting weekend at all. Jerry broke his computer chair so we had to buy a new one. Not that our budget wasn't tight enough. I have NO clue why we are struggling so much. Jerry says it's all the trips we took this year. I guess he might be right. When I was going over the books our trip to Tampa was actually more expensive than our trip to Atlanta. I might have been more frugal when I was booking things. We really can't afford the trip in a few weeks to Homecoming but the tickets are bought and my heart would be broken if we didn't go. I need to see my friends!! Ten years plus for many of them..I have seen Lisa a few times and I miss her tons. Thank goodness for cell phones and IM's otherwise I'd lose touch with her. We are both quite busy but always make time for each other. I love her dearly. I have a couple tests this week and a huge review for another test on October 3rd. I'm a great test taker though. I have learned...

I could say I'm probably in a rotten mood tonight. Just spent the last hour talking to a "friend" and yes..I use the quotes because I think this person never meant to be my friend but to use me. After talking to them for the hour I'm sick to my stomach that I ever gave this person my attention. Damn it...my attention is worth more then the way I have been treated. *sigh* I'm going to study tomorrow with a friend from school. I don't usually head to the school on the weekend but they are behind and need my help. At least I'm good for something. GAH!! I hate that this person has made me feel like this. I hope their teeth all rot and fall out!!

I'm watching the news and see that Hurrican Rita is now a cat 4 hurricane. Hopefully it will miss LA and head more to TX. Not that I dislike Texans just that New Orleans doesn't need the additional hassles. Here in Jacksonville we are again getting feeder band storms from Rita but they are nothing more then a regular afternoon shower for us. I don't think there has been any severe weather in the area in days. In my ten years of living here the only storm that was supposed to come close was Floyd and that ended up about 400 miles away from here. I do remember thinking that I was scared. Now last year we did have some bad weather with all the storms that landed in the Tampa Bay area. Power outages and stuff but again, nothing like what New Orleans and the other areas are going through. Power outages in the house for 4 days was nothing now if I look back. I could still travel in my car less then a mile and have power, running water and a hot meal. I know we should ...

I just got done doing the bills. I have no clue why our money is depleting so fast. Even after we paid off the crunched up car we should have a little more in the bank. I do know that my new way of eating is a little more costly. Fruit is much more expensive than a bag of Doritos. Should eating healthy be more expensive? That just doesn't sound logical to me. Two trips are planned out for this fall too. Both going to Michigan. The first in October will be for my college homecoming. The next one if November is for Thanksgiving with the fam. Mom and Dad flipped for the ticket on this trip. They wanted to see their baby for the holidays :D In my ten years of living in Jacksonville, we have only spent two holidays with my family. After last years melt down I know that us going to Michigan this Thanksgiving is to help me cope with the rest of the holiday season here in town. (I'm sure you'll hear more about this as the season gets closer) Speaking of Holidays....m...

That's right..it's National Talk like a Pirate Day . A friend of mine sent me this joke to help celebrate. So a pirate walks into a bar. The bartender looks at him and says, "Err.. sir... you realize you have a wheel in your pants?" "Yarharr," replies the pirate, "it's drivin' me nuts." Enjoy the day!!

I have Ocular Hypertension, which basically means I am at high risk for Glaucoma. Today I had to go in for a few tests to see if I was showing signs of glaucoma or not. Thankfully my eyes haven't changed since the last time they did these studies so for now I continue taking my eye drops to help lower my eye pressure and go from there. I hate taking those test. Then they have you sit to talk to the doctor about them. I'm thinking in my head that I'm doing to have to get a seeing eye dog and all kinds of stuff. I'm not much of an optimist. Kinda hard to be up when things don't seem to be going your way. I did luck out of this...for now. I have to go every 6 months to see if my eye pressure gets better or worse. It was really really up about 2 months ago but to be honest I wasn't doing my drops every night. Hmm...go blind..put in drops at night. You'd think I'd be smarter about this.

Yesterday I get a phone call. "I've been in an accident" Probably one of the worst things to hear but I guess it's better to hear it then find out about it from police officer who knocks at your door. Jerry is fine...but as you see..his car isn't. He took my car to work today. I shouldn't be upset but now I'm stranded. I can't go work out. I can't go grocery shopping. Heck, he has to come get me to take me to my Eye Appointment today. Wonder how next week with classes is going to work out. We had just paid that car off too.

So out of the blue I get this IM from a friend who ..well...we just went our seperate ways. Lately we've been talking more but not consistantly. Anyway..he sends me this: Him: How do you titillate an ocelot? Me: carefully? Him: You ocillate his titalot. Him: Ba-dum chiih I just had to share...it made me smile!!

I had three things due tomorrow in my ASL class and got two of them done. About an hour ago my professor called to tell me class was cancelled! :D So now I only have my other class where we are watching a documentary. Talk about a cake day!

I am proud of myself today. I got up and worked out before 9am. I am not a morning person at all. If it's before 10am...you should just not even bother with me. Today though...was different. I knew I had to work out and go to WW and then go to school and I didn't want to cheat myself of any of that today. Sound crazy that I can't fit all that in but basically, I'm a bum. And bums don't do well at keeping up routines. I'm trying to change all of that with my new outlook. My workout was great. There were actually other people there for a change. So much better to chat with other people then work out by yourself. Oh yea..and the music was good too. No "My country tis of thee" to technopop beats. Then it was home for showering and getting some food . Then to WW for the weigh in. I thought for sure with the trip last weekend and not sticking to the "plan" and the beers...oh that beer was so yummy..that I would have gained. But not this girly. I l...

I don't know what it is about getting some sun that is both wonderful and extremely draining. Today was opening day for the Jaguars . It was amazing weather. Maybe a little warm but I slatered on the sunscreen about 30 minutes before we got into the sun and over all, didn't get that burned. But my face...being the delicate flower I am..(tee hee hee) did get a little pink. I like the feeling though. Sun beating on my face, adds just enough color to hide the years. Or so I hope. The game was fun. Saw some good potential and it's always more positive when we win :) School tomorrow...going to be a full day I think. I have lots of questions and we have to go over this book we are reading. Ugh...talk about a snoozer of a book. I understand that we have to read it to learn about deaf culture but the actual writing is so dry. Maybe it will get better...one can only hope.

Amazing what a good nights rest can do :) I was having some kidney pain yesterday too. Jerry kept asking me if I wanted him to punch me in the kidney's to make them feel better. Sometimes I wonder about him. heh.. I'm off to the library to meet with my study buddies for ASL. I'm sure we'll look like total dorks signing to each other but you know..we'll be quiet *giggle* Finally the weekend..and on top of that it's BSG Night!!!

Ever have one of those days that you think too much. Today would be my think to much day. I should really stop doing that.... Tomorrow is Friday...and this makes me happy. I have to meet a friend at the library. Kinda looking forward to having study buddies. Hopefully it will help when we all have to go to the Deaf Community centers and stuff. I tend to be shy at first, more of an observer...ok..I stay that way pretty much all the time. Gets me into trouble because I think too hard sometimes.

I've been really focusing in on my ASL lately. Most of the week has been driving around from Library to Library trying to find the video tapes I need for my class. Today I ended up at the campus library and sure enough....they had them. Now why didn't I go there first? I'm such a dork at times. The videos are so cheesy. I guess they kind of have to be seeing how they are beginner ASL tapes. I do have to say that it really helped a lot to see the signs I was learning put into action. Vocabulary lists of signs gets old and you don't really think you are learning anything until you see it. I was suprised at how well I could understand. Granted they were only using signs we had learned for the most part. One of my classes was cancelled so I only had my ASL class today. Kind of nice seeing how Tropical Depression Ophelia is knocking on the door. It's quite gloomy out. One of the girls in my class asked me for help so I'll be heading into campus on Frida...

This has been a great weekend! The guys from my game are the best. They took care of me all weekend. We had too fun, even waiting for the MARTA . (let me explain) One of the guys is totally convinced he's got the worst luck and if anything is gonna go wrong, it will because he's there. So we head to Five Points so I can basically drag the five guys to the World of Coca Cola place. Kind of a neat place, not really what I was expecting. I guess I wanted to see a bottling plant maybe. Anyway, the last area before they herd you into their Coke Shop is the tasting room where you get to taste all the international Coca-Cola products. Let me tell you personally that the Beverly is bitter....very gross aftertaste....and what's up with the sticky floors. (no comment). We head back through Underground Atlanta to the MARTA. We all learned that if there is no one around the train platform...the train just left. (tee hee hee). So we board the train and I kiddingly said to Mr. Optimis...

Tonight at dinner as we watched the news we were thinking back to a year ago when the hurricanes tore through Florida. Here in Jacksonville there wasn't any direct hits but we lost all our food because our power was gone for about 5 days. I watch the news and think back at how "inconvienced" I was that I didn't have power and I'm almost ashame of myself. I didn't lose everything. I didn't have people looting my house for goods after the storm. I just didn't have power. We still ate...sure..it was peanut butter sandwiches but I bet right now those people would love a peanut butter sandwich. Even on my low carb bread. We should never take for granted the people in our lives and the conviences of life.