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I just got out of my first class. American Sign Language I (ASL I) and I'm a big overwhelmed. It's going to take me sometime to get my fingers to do what is required. I actually had to crack my knuckles a few times during class to relieve some of the pressure. You'd think being a pianist for years that I would have control over my fingers. Sure..I can play the piano and type really fast but sign in different. Hopefully it will become something as natural as talking in the next few weeks. My new glasses are in. I'll pick them up tomorrow when I go in for my contact checkup. I have to say I'm really loving contacts. I can't believe I waited this long to get them. It's so nice to walk outside and not have my vision suddenly impaired by fog. I do notice though that my eyes do get tired quicker in contacts. I'm hoping it's just because it's the first week and I'm still getting used to them.

I went shopping today for some clothes. It has been over three years since I've been able to buy pants with zippers. I know that sounds crazy to some but for me today was a break through. I actually have pants with zippers again. It's a good thing I don't cry easily (heh..if you only knew). I even found some jeans at Old Navy that fit but were way too long. It's rough being short and fat.

I really think I'm allergic to mornings. I don't like them, never have, never will. The only time they are any fun is if you stay in bed and laze around. Today is the day of my new path to my new career. I figure it's going to take two years to finish this...maybe less depending on a few things but no need to worry about that at this point. So my day in a nutshell. Curves, Weight Watchers and then off to class. The only stressful part I think is that I get out of class at 6:15pm and getting from the beaches area home will be traffic hell. Let's hope I'm wrong.

Tomorrow is the big day. Back to school. I hope I'm ready. It will be nice to meet new people. Oh yea..and the learning stuff will be neat too. *giggle* Weekend has been great!! I don't think I've laughed this much lately. It's nice to be on the road to happiness. There were some HUGE mistakes I made getting here. But I've learned and that's what is important. (So cliche' I know...but it's true) Next weekend is our trip to Atlanta . I'm excited to escape from here for a bit. Will also be nice to meet a couple friends from SWG . I'm sure we'll be thick as thieves. ;)

Only took me 15 minutes to get my contacts in today. I'm quite proud. I know this must sound silly to anyone who has had contacts but for me this was a hurdle. I practiced all last week with touching the whites of my eyes but that wasn't enough. Yesterday I spent 3 hours trying to get them in. Granted I took breaks in between but three hours of poking at my eyes wasn't much fun. Had a doctor's appointment today and he was thrilled with me! I had lost substantial amounts of weight since I last saw him and he said he was proud of me. Sounds silly to be happy that someone is proud of me but I really need the encouragement. One of my friends (I use that term loosely now for that person) used to be the one cheering me on, but they are too busy I guess or something for me. I hope I never do that to anyone. If you notice me doing that to you...smack me! I start classes Monday. I'm a nervous wreck. It's been...gosh....14 years since I graduated at CMU. I d...

Hurricane Katrina's feederbands hit Jacksonville about 3 minutes into the second quarter of tonights football game between the Jaguars and the Falcons. Torrential.....cold.... We left at the half. Not much fun when your panties are soaked and not in the good way ;)

I got contacts yesterday. I'm having a terrible time getting them in. I know it will take practicing..but I want them in NOW!! :) Got a few things done on my list. Got the MIL present and did the oil change. Also had this squeek in the car and it turned out that the frame was bent. Don't know if it happened from the bus running me off the road or when Jerry backed the car off the curb. They were both within a few days. They were able to heat it up and bend it back and now more squeeks!! It was driving me crazy everytime I drove it. I also wanted to make sure that on the trip to Atlanta it would be safe. Now I know that it is so Atlanta will be worry free :)

I seem to be slacking on things I need to get done. So if I post them here...at least I'd see them. (tee hee hee) To Do: Laundry Dishes Get oil changed in car Shopping for MIL gift Doesn't seem like much...but I get distracted by the easiest things. Maybe like posting on my blog...or some game..or someone chatting me up in IM's.

Not getting to bed until 5am has a bad effect on me. I spent most of the day not doing what I had planned. I'm a bit grouchy too :P I'm really trying to remain calm and cool but seems life is just wanting to throw my curves today. I guess it's expected. Just didn't want it to happen quite yet.

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Whew...what a day :) I got SO much accomplished. Well, kinda...I woke up late so I didn't go work out. I will tomorrow. I think I need to change my work out schedule anyway. I'm thinking Tuesday, Thursday and Saturdays will be better for me. Especially with classes on Mondays and Wednesdays. Anyway, I went to WW today and lost :) Yay me!!! I'm doing so well. I shouldn't be so boastful but I'm so proud. I haven't weighed this little (not that I'm little by any means) in over 5 years. Afterwards I went out the campus to buy my books and to see if I could get there in time after the WW meeting. I thought it would take a half hour and it only took fifteen minutes. That means I can stay with my WW group. I've really gotten to know a lot of them in the past six months and I thank goodness for them every week. They help me with this "mission". So yea...got my books. $190 later I'm heading to go to the grocery store to do that chore. ...

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I have to say that this has been one of the nicest weekends I've had in a very long time. It's not that I'm out doing a lot but that I have been in touch with SO many people. Either by phone, IM's or face to face. I love it!! I did have some funky dreams last night. Mostly about being late for class. Which is odd...seeing how they don't start for another week. I have to get my books and stuff this week. Oh yea...and an oil change for the Aztek before driving it to Atlanta. Did I mention I'm excited about my Atlanta trip? Well..I am :) R is going to be there Friday night, which is good. He's such a sweetie. And then I get to meet A and J for the first time in real. (kinda nervous, I mean..what if they hate me). I tend to be shy at first, but then once I get to know someone, there is no holding back. I also need to buy my tickets to Michigan for Central's Homecoming. I have my hotel reserved..but not the flight. I know they went up $50 in ...

Yay, it's Friday :) Not that my weekends are much different from the week. Well..I guess they are. I don't usually cook on the weekends. I have this feeling that this weekend isn't going to amount to much. I do need to clean off the treadmill. So hopefully that will get done. Should probably vaccuum too...*sigh* I hate housework.

My hair dresser is moving. Actually closer to my house. Not that the old salon was any great drive. I really need to get my hair done before school starts. I wonder if she has already left her old shop. I guess I should call. I have to get an oil change for my car too. Especially before the upcoming Atlanta trip. I am REALLY looking forward to that weekend. About two weeks ago I was dreading it but so much has changed. I'm trying to drop all negativity from my life. It's hard because I'm nice and I have a hard time telling people that what they say or do to me is mean.

Life's little suprises to make you smile: A phone call with your best friend. A flirty man at the grocery store who says he noticed you when you came in. A Mint Mocha Chip Frappuccino Light Someone telling you that they love you All in all...a great day and it's only 1:19pm :)

I was watching a trailer for a movie and heard a line that hit me as touching. "I would rather fight with you then make love to anyone" I don't know why that hit me....

Went to see "The Island" today. Was pretty good. Not a blockbuster by any means but thoughtful. Think of "Logan's Run" and "THX-1138" with a splash of "The Matrix" all wrapped into an okay movie. It was entertaining none the less. Afterwards headed to La-z-y Boy Showcase shop to look at a couch I had my eye on. So we walk in, ask the sales dude for the couch. "Oh..we don't have that on the showroom floor but it sit just like this couch here" Like how would he know if they have never had it in thier showroom before. So we walked out. I'm not going to waste my time listening to some sale dude pitch me about a couch I can't see. I'd rather order it from the website and cut out any middle man.

Pre-season Jaguar football!

So I'm going through a site today and suddenly see a bunch of men in "wife beaters" trying to look sexy. So transparent. Do they really think we fall for that? I really think it's them who like to look at themselves.

The problem with Online Friendships is that you can lose touch with people very fast. It only takes a days of someone not logging in to realize that you aren't really their friend. You're just a void to pass the time. I don't mean that for all my online friends. I guess it's when you don't get any indications..or dare I say it...Feedback from them. Most of my Online friends are good at letting me know that they won't be around. And for those of you that are like that. I thank you very much. It makes my life easier because I'm not thinking you are dead on the side of the road or something like that.

Life is very up in the air right now. I'm a wreck but trying to keep focused. Don't know how much I'll be posting..things like this just don't make for good reading. And it's not like I'm getting any feedback here anyway. That's what this is all about...feedback....amazing how much we need it. And by we, I mean humanity.

Amber is always good for some fun... Directions: Type "(your name) is" with the quotes, into a Google search then pick out your favorite 5 responses. Copy, then repost your responses: Jeanne is an incredible performer and one is mesmerized when she utilizes her jeanne is a reluctant "seer woman" whose second sight feels more like a curse than a Jeanne is not afraid to take from the past and use in ... Jeanne is a Platform Professional. OK. What does that mean? ... Jeanne is forced to reflect on her own goals and find a new hero to look up to. ... Jeanne is the latest storm to wreak havoc in the Caribbean. I had to pick six too..*sigh*

I lost 1.2lbs at WW today. That means that my Vegas weight is officially gone. I knew it was last week but had to wait a week to get the confirmation. I also had an awesome workout at Curves today. I worked hard on the machines, I want those muscles toned soon. I mean I know I have a lot to lose still..but the foundation needs to be strong! Tomorrow I'll be blind. That's right..time for an eye exam. I really hate it. I don't seem to bounce back from the dilation very well...usually takes like 8 hours.

Saw this rainbow when I was out. Was a double one but you can't see that. It's been a LONG time since I've seen one.

I should go to bed...but I don't want to. I don't wanna dream..I don't wanna do anything. I've been playing BF2 for...hmm...5 hours straight now.. The mindless killing somehow is just making the time fly by. If it weren't for my hunger pains I think I'd forget that I needed anything.

mangled.....at least it's something...right?

It's friday...which means....That's right. SciFi Friday!!! My most favorite night of TV. I'm really looking forward to it too. Odd the little things that mean the most. When it gets down to life it's always the little things that add up. Good or bad....they do make a difference. Played a lot of BF2 today. Was doing good for a while but I get fatigued and have to quit. *shrug* gives me a chance to blog :P

Ever feel like when you talk to someone it's going to be the last time you'll ever speak to them. I think it's very important to let people know how much they mean to you, you never know if that's the last conversation or not. I guess we can always hope that it's not, but we have no control. Sometimes things happen and the people that matter go away. so here..I'm saying it now. I love you!!!

Woke up this morning with one of those feelings like I had no clue where I was. That's the most terrible way to wake up I think. Maybe waking up to a siren or a fire would be worse. Let me clarify my statement. Waking up not knowing where you are is a terrible but not urgent way to wake up. Took me several minutes to figure out where the heck I was. Not much on the agenda today. Maybe some laundry...we'll see...

After talking to many people whose opinions I hold high...Atlanta is on! Well..as long as others are going. hehe....I know I will be somewhere that weekend. Even if I just have to go to the beach...I will be in a hotel being pampered!!!

My new little contact grill is working out well. Had some steaks tonight, they were yummy but not perfect. I'll have to remember not to cook it so long next time. Labor Day Weekend is very up in the air. Supposed to go to Atlanta (really wanted to go) but seems others are wanting to go else where. Can't really turn my back on the people who have already committed to Atlanta though. Seems.....not very nice. I'll have to sleep on this one.

Just got a new contact grill . I was going to get the George Forman but the Hamilton was about $20.00 cheaper and I like that the drip tray slips in. My old George Forman grill the tray would slide around and I'd have grease on the counter top. Not very fun to clean up. I also LOVE that you can put everything in the dishwasher. I'll be grilling the chicken tonight :)

I'm always finding weird stuff out there. This is kinda fun :) J Jolly E Extreme A Adventurous N Normal N Neat E Entertaining Name / Username: Name Acronym Generator From Go-Quiz.com

2:30am and I'm wide awake. *sigh* I was so exausted earlier but was woken up. Now that I'm awake I'm thinking to hard and my mind is racing. I hate that..maybe I should just pay bills...

Probably a good thing that many don't read this. I sometimes reveal too much. Like right now, I'm feeling very exposed. You get used to certain things and then they are taken away and you don't know what to do. Should you be concerned or should you just accept it and move on?

Played a LOT of SWG today. Too much. I have 3 characters and played for about 2 hours on each of them. While I was playing I downloaded a the itunes exclusive album from Moby. I can't get enough of it right now. I don't know why. Just speaks to me. It's not even the lyrics..but the rhythm of it all. Trance....hynotic.....makes me want to close my eyes and just get lost. Sunday was a bright day yesterday Dark cloud has come into the way They sing to the darkest night Long before Why can't I face it Am I too blind to see Why did he go Why did he leave me Sunday was a bright day yesterday Dark cloud has come into the way Oo-oo-oo-oo-oooo La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la Why can't I face it Am I too blind to see Why did he go Why did he leave me Sunday was a bright day yesterday Dark cloud has come into the way Oo-oo-oo-oo-oooo La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la Sunday (The Day Before My Birthday) - Moby